Be careful that you do not forget the Lord your God, failing to observe his commands, his laws and his decrees that I am giving you this day. Otherwise, when you eat and are satisfied, when you build fine houses and settle down, and when your herds and flocks grow large and your silver and gold increase and all you have is multiplied, then your heart will become proud and you will forget the Lord your God, who brought you out of Egypt, out of the land of slavery. -Deuteronomy 8:11-14
I can’t think.
It’s too loud.
I just turned off the dull roar of the dehumidifier three feet away from my office chair. Rolling on concrete.
The smell hits. Musty, moist, unhealthy.
I want to open the windows, but it’s too cold.
Headache… A constant headache.
Hurricane Matthew is to blame
On Saturday, October 8th our family and thousands of others in the Carolinas were hit by the hurricane. Living in a rural area is new to us and we didn’t have any way of knowing how big of a deal it would be. People in our community were without power for 5-7 days. Our family started out with candles and blankets, but eventually stayed at a hotel. (Which we were gratefully able to do thanks to my husband’s career in the hospitality industry. Praise the Lord!) Over the course of the past several weeks the full extent of the damage has made itself known.
Wet spots bubbling up from the carpet.
Warped trim on the wall.
Smells that won’t seem to leave.
Little by little we’ve been peeling away layers and finding additional damage.
The carpet is gone. The wall trim is gone… and underneath is deep green mold.
An inspection of the bricks at the home’s foundation reveals a long standing problem which has allowed moisture in, again and again.
When I was a boy and I would see scary things in the news, my mother would say to me, ‘Look for the helpers. You will always find people who are helping.’ — Fred Rogers
“This could cost upwards of $20,000 to fix it right.” –My husband
I went into normal Brittney mode: Fix, Pray, Worry… Fix more.
I looked for the helpers.
I contacted FEMA. We are not in a disaster declared county. The federal government cannot help.
I contacted the State of North Carolina. Since we are not in a disaster declared county, the state also cannot help.
We contacted our insurance company and even the person who gave us a structural warranty when we purchased our home.
Every man-made door has closed…
Remember Beverly Cleary‘s Ramona and Beezus? In the story Ramona’s family has a financial bomb drop when they were halfway through a home addition (which would allow both sisters to have their own bedrooms.) Then, Dad loses his job.
A half-finished bedroom. Wind blowing through the tarp coverings and into the house.
Arguments. Lots of arguments.
This classic movie immediately came to mind as it relates so closely to our current situation. We had just paid a sum to a contractor to build us a garage when the hurricane hit. I left my own steady income in June.
The finances don’t add up. My husband and I have had some “lively discussions.”
My “fixing” is at its end. This is God-sized.
I Trust You, Lord… Because I See You Have Lots of Options
A few days ago I was telling my small group friends that I am really good at having faith the Lord will provide when I see He has lots of options. When the options shrink I find myself worrying more and more. It is then (or right now) I have to preach to myself. I don’t want my faith to be situational.
Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go. -Joshua 1:9
Be strong, Girl!
Just like God was with Joshua and the Israelites, He is with me wherever I go.
According to Yosef Hayim Yerushalmi, the Hebrew verb zakhor (“remember”) appears in the Bible about one hundred and sixty-nine times, often with either Israel or God as the subject.
I can remember God’s faithfulness in the past to me and my family. (More about this here: 4 Places to Look: When God Seems Hard to Find.)
A North Korean believer said, “You pray for us? We pray for you. … You have so much, you put your faith in your money and your freedom. In North Korea we have neither money nor freedom, but we have Christ and we’ve found He’s sufficient. (Christian Post)